Outside my comfort zone

I am going outside my comfort zone.

True.

But until today, I thought I was going with courage.

What is courage? To go when you are afraid. But, until now, I believed I was not afraid at all.

Now, I am having last minute jitters. Last minute thoughts. Am I crazy? Where do I go? Why do I do it? Tomorrow, the first course begins. Should I go? Why did I decided to go?

So, now I am couragous, but I do not feel at all as it.

I feel like hiding under my bed.